The Struggle Babe

Im trying to get better at blogging more often and not just when I can't hold my frustrations in any longer. So here I am and what can I say for sure? Well with much conviction I can say for sure that every single one of us has our moments of weakness. I had one myself last night and spent the day today beating myself up when I realized that I was being unreasonable as to what I'm holding myself to. Last night I needed to eat something, anything with a real flavor something that would make me not feel so restricted. So I ate one single solitary Oreo cookie, and yes I paid for that moment of 'weakness' I got so sick that I ever woke every few moments all thru the night feeling nauseous and dizzy and all thru the day today I struggled thru sick and pain.. Over one stupid cookie. I know that yes indeed it's my own fault but I don't think it's reasonable to continually get mad with myself and beat myself up over the effects of a disease that IS NOT my fault. It ...

I stopped posting here almost a year ago, When reading back the old posts it struck me at how many things really havent changed. The most significant however is that as of 3 months ago I have a diagnosis, after 4+ years for suffering off and on and countless trips to the hospital. I have Gastroparesis (gas-trow-pah-re-sus) - Paralysis of the stomach that is estimated to effect 5 million Americans with no cure and few treatments. Foods eaten take hours or even days to leave the stomach leading to Nausea, Pain, Vomiting, Malnutrition, Bloating, Weight Issues and More.. It does not mean you are not hungry it means that you are starving and cannot eat the food right in front of you. So with that in mind and me struggling more then ever, I have changed this blog to reflect what I now know and hope that I can be a small voice in Gastroparesis awareness thru my own struggles with this chronic condition. Ive had this for quite some time and never knew what it was and as the years have go...